यह् मेरा पहला प्रयास है हिंदी मैं लिख्नने का

मैं आज बहुत खुश हूं । बहुत मजा आ रहा है । यह जो मैं आज कर रहा हूं, यह कल मेरे बेटे अंश को बहुत फयदा पहुंचाएगा । आज तो अंश सिर्फ दस महिने का है, पर जब वह बडा होगा, तब यह काबलीयत मेरे काम आएगी । में अंश को हिंदी अपने आप ही सिखा दूंगा । और जब तक हम हिंदी घर पर नहीं बोलेंगे और लिखेंगे, तब तक हम अपने बच्चौं को कैसे सिखाएंगे ...

Wow, its is so well said

That they grow like weeds...

So how does it Feel?

Hmm...thats a good question. I have been asked that question many times so I thought I should answer it. Well, there are many aspects into how I feel. Pathetic summarises all. Incomplete might be another way to describe it...As you can see, I did not feel like doing anything for last two months. Just did not feel like doing anything. Just got wasted.

But I am excited now that they are coming back next week and so the count down has begun.

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First day without Ansh

To sum it up, it felt I have lost purpose of living with out Ansh. When he is with me, It feels like whole and gives you reason to wake up every morning and go to work and earn and be healthy and so and so forth. Just for him (and Shalu...) but they not here, I woke up at 3:00 in the afternoon on a saturday morning. I felt so bad about myself. But kindda had to accept it. Anyways, I am teaching myself to live next two months without them around me.
All the best to me.

Followup: Last night scare

I am convinced that probably what happed that night was result of not burping Ansh after feeding. Most of the times he sleeps while having his last formula feed and does not burp. I have noticed since that day that he wakes up crying similar to what he did the other day in 15 to 20 mins. Now we make sure that he burps after he takes his last feed and he seems to be doing better.

Preparing for trip to India

Ansh and Shaly are now all preparing to go to India. I am busy making sure that everything goes well. Especially with Ansh. I want that he is out of his flu (cough and cold) and all healthy to fly 24 hours to Delhi. His entire family (Paternal and Maternal) are waiting for him hand spread wide and far. So he should also be prepared to meet them healthy and happy.

Last night scare

I was scared to death last night. It was 12:40 and we were working on getting Ansh to sleep. For some reason he did not want to. So we keep on trying. We had given him his night dose of cough medicine and tylenol as he got his shots day before yesterday and was running close to 100 degree temperature. Shalu sang him some lullybies and then I did and he finnaly slept. I transfered him to his crib and off we go to sleep. Within 5 mins, Ansh started to cry like crazy. We had never heard him cry like this before. Shalu got scared first. I did not. But then when he did not stop, even I got scared. It was like he was choking or some thing. His face was all red and he was crying on top of his voice. I thought may some thing bit him in the crib or went into his mouth !! I had no idea what to think of? I am one of those who believe that there always a reason behind everything. Even if not, I try to find it hard but when I fail, I accept that may be there is no reason for this particular thing. But definitely there was some reason why Ansh cried like that and I feel horrible accepting the fact that I have no idea what the reason was and the fact that probably I will never be able to find it.